Readers BEWARE (graphic)
Just as I turned 18 I went through life not being able to keep it retracted. I wanted to so bad to hide and try and fit in with the other guys in the USA. I was a woman's nightmare when they found out I was uncircumcised. They all try to pull it back but it would always pull back forward no matter what. It aggravated the hell out of them having to hold it back.
I later learned I had a short frenulum and it would always pull my foreskin back over the head no matter what. It was worse when I was erect. I remember closely examining it to always wonder what it would be like if the frenulum wasn't there and to be able to fully retract the skin without pulling the bottom tip downward. I thought to myself if I was able to do that it would look so much like a circumcised cock. I have seen other uncut guys who were able to retract try to hide it but the frenulum and bunching behind the head gives it away.
At 18 I quickly found myself visiting porn shops and all nude strip clubs. At the porn shop I purchased my first cock pump and used it a lot to JO with mainly. My cock never got longer but it did gain some thickness that stays with me today. I liked how it would pull my cock in deeper as I applied more suction and at the same time the cylinder would pull back my skin stretching my frenulum. The more the frenulum stretched the better it felt and would result in a happy ending.
Instead of keeping the skin forward when entering the tube I would find myself retracting to allow the tube to stretch more of my frenulum as it sucked my cock deeper into it. The more it stretched the better it felt and I did this technique for a long time so it became standard JO process when using the tube. One day I started doing the same but this time I got into an overly heated session and when I felt the swelling and apex of shooting starting to build I pumped harder and faster.
As I began to shoot my load I heard and felt a loud pop and the tension on my frenulum released as well as the tube swallowing more of my shaft into it freely. After I shot my load I saw a mixture of cum and blood in the tube so I knew I had messed something up. I took an embarrassing trip to the ER and I got away with stating it happened during sex. It worked but later I read that it happens a lot during sex. Anyways we must have gotten mixed information as they started to prepare me for a circumcision as I found out when I started to question the tools they brought into the room.
I was in shock and cried and pleaded that all I wanted was for them to sew it back to what it once was. He said it was not possible as it would just tear again and I would be back in the same situation. They made me believe I had no choice but to get circumcised. I was so upset and stalled for the longest time before he got impatient with me and said he was going to cut the rest of the frenulum all the way back and put in a few stitches so it would never tear again.
I healed pretty quickly about a week and when I went to pull it back for the first time I was able to retract my foreskin all the way back into the base of my shaft and there was no restriction at all and I got the first glimpse of my cock looking tightly circumcised for the first time. My skin had no problem staying back on its own.
I was afraid I had messed up my cock from the accident. I was no longer how I was or if it would feel the same or not but when I was able to JO it felt no different other than I got to pull my skin back further but the stretching of what was left under there still felt wonderful.
It was like a new toy for me. I went around showing myself off as if I was circumcised at the gym showers as often as I could. I could finally pass as being circumcised. Then instead of only pulling it back in the showers I decided to keep it back. I had issues of it pulling forward when I moved or walked but it got less and less and within a year I found I was able to keep it back permanently.
It wasn't until I found magazines and articles about having a long foreskin, foreskin play and docking became a popular subject. That was when my curiosity sparked an interest to want to pull it back forward again but I realized I couldn't. Wearing the skin back for that long of a time my foreskin shrank and my head expanded twice what it once was before. I wish I had before and after pictures but before it was small and pointed from being held captive inside the foreskin for 18 years.
When flaccid I was able to finally get it back over the head but later developed painful tears at the tip when I tried to retract to clean or pee. It was difficult for the tips opening to make it past the larger head. It was so painful I finally went back to see the doctor about it. Once again the subject of circumcision came up as a permanent cure but sent me home with some cream and finger stretching exercises. Weird instructions coming from a female doctor this time.
The stretching exercises used the slippery cream and my fingers. Pull the skin back apply the cream and pull it back forward. Use your finger and thumb and insert your pointer fingers one at a time and stretch and pull. Then if you don't cum from that I expanded my exercise to introduce a third and fourth middle fingers. This was exciting for me and I could remember that was all I thought about and I did it every night before going to bed. I got so good at it I was able to get a total of 6 fingers stretched inside. (2-Pointer, 2-middle and 2-ring fingers).
After getting 6 fingers inside I started to use inflatable toys to stretch wider and longer. My skin had no problem any more leaving my head expanded even when I wore it covered again. What I did notice was that it was too too long and it would all gather at the tip and vibrate when I walked or moved causing me to have to visit the bathroom frequently as if I had a bladder problem only to retract and wipe all the pre-cum that leaked constantly through out the day.
It was the longest it had ever been and sported a nice long overhang even when hard. With the head expanded and desensitized the longer the foreskin the better it felt but I couldn't deal with the bathroom visits so I had lived with it like that for a long time. I was afraid to see the doctor only to hear circumcision was the permanent cure again.
I found some stories of people keeping their skin retracted and the light bulb came back on. these people were able to keep retracted all their life and when they got hard they still appeared to look circumcised because their skin had shrank completely. Duh that happened to me so I knew it would work. I began to wear my skin back for another year or until I had it at a comfortable length where it covered when hard and was loose enough so my head would stay expanded.
Today I call it keeping my foreskin finely tuned. During the day I keep it pulled forward. When I sleep I keep it retracted to let the head get some air, desensitize and stay expanded. I would love to stretch daily but I know what the results would be but if I didn't stretch at all it would shorten and tighten to cause my head to compress. I could moderately pull and stretch but at least once a month I can use the inflate ball when I have more time but its fast and easier to just use my fingers when in the shower soaping up real good and working it to get 6 fingers stretched inside. I usually shoot once the 6th finger slips in. The stretching pushes me past the point of no return. Being in the shower also makes clean up easy.
